As long as I’m happy
Nothing else matters as long as I am happy. I feel bad for you old fool, always stressing over money. Nothing in my life is as important as MY happiness, and the happiness of my honey. I don’t care that no one can come to visit me because my house is a wreck. Clothes piled high, molded food on the counters, maggots in the sink it doesn’t matter to me one bit. I’m perfectly happy with who and what I am. I’m not concerned with money at all, I’ll cry and plead until I get what I want. I’ll use my child as a pawn in a game, give me what I want or I’ll keep my child away from everyone forever. My child won’t mind my child does everything for me to make me happy. Only 12 years old and my child does laundry, cleans the entire house, and prepares food sometimes if my child gets hungry and wants to eat. My child knows I like to rest in my room with my honey or just be left alone. My child takes out all the dogs cleans their cages and does homework too. My child never bothers me because my child doesn’t want me to be unhappy. My life is perfect, and I am very happy. I’m not even worried about all that money I got from you. You are miles and miles from me old fool what can you do? My mother will get me whatever I need, she loves her grandbaby and knows very well what will happen if she doesn’t. I am sorry you are too wrapped up in your struggle to survive to know what It means to be truly happy like me.
Maybe in a childish and delusional state of mind, someone may think this is all ok. This is a perfect example of feeling entitled. When a person, especially an adult, and or parent, put their own personal needs, their own personal, desires, and happiness above all else. They will be in a constant battle with loneliness, sadness, health issue, financial, issue and maybe even legal issues. You cannot live a utopia life sitting in a room all day barking orders to a child, stuffing your face, and sleeping. Waiting until someone comes up with enough money for you to find happiness, in whatever you can do for yourself. Even when you do something for someone else, it is a false gift, with deceitful efforts. Unless you get tons of credit and praise, you will be angry and bitter. It never was about anyone but you. If you want to feel special, then earn it. Do something positive to accomplish something positive and impressive and you will be special. It takes a lot more than just looking in the mirror and telling a reflection I’m special and I deserve special treatment. Be someone your children will be proud of and proud to be like. Don’t be someone they can’t wait to get away from, and are ashamed for anyone to know they are even related to you. People are entitled, they are entitled to everything they earn, and they are entitled to a certain level of respect. The sooner you learn that the world doesn’t revolve around you or your happiness the sooner you can begin to actually live your life. The happiness you seek is temporary, if you would stop and look back at your life you would know this. Everything that is permanent in your life, you abuse, mistreat, use, and hurt. These very things, people are always there when your temporary happiness abandons you. To bail you out, pick you up, and mend your broken heart. Grow up, before your children do, it’s the adult thing to do.
Simply my Thoughts
Dean Butler
